I'm back from my trip to Buffalo and NYC, which was lovely. I am kind of relieved to be back in LA, a place where it can be 70 degrees in the middle of the winter. I guess it's starting to be home. Weird. Good. Weird. I'm not relieved to be going back to work, though. A lot of people were not thinking past the new year in terms of the strike...everyone was saying, "we're all ok for now, but after the new year, it'll be a different story." So now it is the new year, and we won't be distracted by giant gift baskets showing up at every moment. Does that means layoffs are coming? Is it possible for the lit dept to get any slower?
I know that New Year's resolutions are stupid and impractical and all that, but I am always drawn to them. I guess I like the idea of a blank slate, a chance to be that person you've always wanted to be. That person with the perfect body who flosses daily and eats lots of vegetables and reads impressive books and accomplishes oh so much. I know myself, though, so I am only going to make one resolution: to work on my writing every day. It can be research or an outline or a scene, it doesn't matter - bu I need to do SOME kind of work every day. I think this idea may have started at a Nightmare Before Christmas party I went to a few weeks ago. A friend of mine tends to go through a few stages of drunkenness...first, there's his loud hatred of everything, where he'll say all those things you think but refrain from saying in public. He also has a phase of doling out admiration and compliments, a phase of sentimentality and a final glassy-eyed phase in which he throws himself at most women in the room, saying things like "I just like pale chicks" and "you gotta get rid of that boyfriend so we can finally be together." A character, he is. Anyway, somewhere in the admiration phase he told me, "I'm a writer who talks about writing and you're a writer who writes." And I thought to myself, am I? Yeah, I have a pilot, a crap feature and two entirely obsolete specs...but is that really enough? I need to keep writing - because a lot of other people are, because this business is hard enough for people who aren't lazy procrastinators, and because I know that once you stop writing, get too into your job or anything else, you might give up and never go back. And I don't want that to be me.
So I am going to write every day.